Poetry

Peeling back layers of earth to find the juice

Skins shed exposing heart to deeper truths

Raw from the abrasion

We fall to the ground begging whats the use

Tried from whats heavy we rise

Flat footed into the freshness of our primordial youth

Mmmmmm soul juice

In a tall glass

Drink and digest dear

All things must pass

Whats sentient to the moment always lasts

So long we allow the collapse

Sink our teeth into the dissolve

Releasing restraint

To dance freely with the serpentine gods

Fainting and fading into whats unknown

and through to the beyond

Letting go of the odds

To taste the dessert our desire once spawned

Letting go and letting in

Lilith may have been known for her sins

But had her worth been in her chains

This story could not have had the chance to begin

Her soul juice leaked through broken shards of skin

And in it she bathed

Drank her own sweetness from that basin

whether or not it agreed to behave

Embraced her darkness lightly

Knowing it is only us who can enslave ourselves

Reclaim the brightness and wealth

From our egoic hells

These shells serve to guard us through trenches and vampiric spells

But without them we can drink ourselves heavenly from golden wells

So open up and let that juice spill out

Drain it onto the fine furniture

Destroy the perfection and return to her

Return to pure

Homecomings are always sure

So trust the tides which turn you back to holy shores

Wash up honest and whole hearted

Let who you are take up space

Even when its disregarded

Spread out and back around to where we started

Peeling back layers of earth to find that juice

Cup it carefully in your hands

Honor its long forgotten truth

Peel back and let it be your truth

Let it be your truth

They told me to settle down, settle down

But I was just getting revved up

They thought I sucked the devil’s tit

But I was drinking from her cup

Melting at the bone

Madness in my home

They said they couldn’t handle me

I never said that they were wrong

Told them welcome to my nightmare

Welcome if you dare

Welcome are your fears and weirdness

They’re handled here with care

They said they couldn’t handle me

Shouted out to the crowd,

BEWARE!

They thought they could abolish me

But I rose like smoke in air

Slapped a warning label on my mind

A PSA she’s not our kind

Little did they know

I was just beginning to unwind

They ran as i unraveled

Took the widened road most traveled

Safe and sound

Back to their homes

They couldn’t handle all this hassle

But in my world things dazzle

And smiles are divine

I never really understood their hush

So they said it one more time

Settle down, settle down they said

This child is too much!

She thinks and breathes outside the lines

And colors on the couch!

Too much for you to handle?

Well I’ll light a candle for your pain

For those who also walk like me

Walk freely without chains

Barefooted and raw hearted

Across the grandest lands uncharted

And even though the road gets rough

I wouldn’t trade it to be pardoned

In fact bring me more, I am ready

To taste the finest wines

Bring me more I’m ready

To leave those torches all behind

I’m ready for her kiss

I’m also ready for her hiss

I’m ready for the throws of love

To lose myself in bliss

Bring me more I’m ready

To chase it to the edge

Jump right over

Lose composure

Drink it to the end

I’m ready to be seen and heard

I’m ready for that sacred purge

I’m ready for releases

Coming deep beneath this hardened earth

They told me to settle down, settle down

But baby i was born kicking back that dirt

And if i were to settle down

I wouldn’t be what i am worth

So may we all amp up

Out of darkness comes rebirth

Some simply aren’t meant to settle down

So we may as well come forth

Born to dissolve

The stars seek

To digest us all

We are stuck on earth

Until we become of the earth

Hinged on desire

Until we become joy

Shackled to doubt

Until faith is restored

In the end we are cleansed

Or else digested again

Until unity.

Hold gently what is sacred

While releasing to awaken

Mind patters

Drum drum

Allow what shatters

One one

You picked food from your teeth

with my bones,

licked your lips after

feasting upon my soul.

Sang my every

exhausted breath,

left me empty

so you may be whole.

And when that wasn’t enough

neither was I, so

you disassembled my spine

and wore it,

to feel you had a backbone.

I let you break me

knowing I would revive.

Lent you my parts

so you could feel what it

means to be alive.

I had hopes you’d grow with me,

my own selfish devise.

It’s our own choice to thrive.

It’s our own choice to thrive.

Liminal spaces

Expansive void

The in between of the before and after

I see who I was

I see who I will become

But which am I

In the liminal spaces?

Where do I place the flats of my feet

In this blender of my pieces?

In the vacuum of spaciousness

Where do I find love?

And in this questioning of love

Where do I find myself?

But there is no growth

Without liminal spaces

No room for the breadth of my wings

Walls only echo my voice back to me

My soul, it sings, and comes back to me

Boarders keep my song

choked up inside of me

I bloat with my own air

and can no longer fit inside the room

So I push back, and create liminal spaces

Can I handle this freedom?

To be without particular form like water

Yet still

can I

Like water

Change with ease and mold to my container?

Can I allow myself to see, that

All spaces are liminal spaces?

I dream of exploding into a million pieces

Releases, releases

For cement now cushions my bones

Replaced soft muscles which couldn’t withstand the blows

These bricks, they built a cove to cover me

But where my nerves end O never know

Life inside the cove

Life can’t circulate

When there’s no room for growth

Does your blood not move?

I cry out to the cold

As I catch the chill off their coats

This world needs more empathy

One can’t breathe with another at their throat

Smothered by dirt, fire turns to smoke

I dream of exploding

into a million pieces

Feel my own heat as the hardness decreases

Releases, releases

I remember those first nights vividly-

Sheets bunched and tangled around my body

As I curled and recurled into different shapes

Searching a position that would hold me like he did

Memories were crawling beneath my skin

I wanted to scream my way out of my body

Eyes wouldn’t close

Eyes wouldn’t stop staring at a ceiling not mine

Love was just downstairs on the couch

But I couldn’t reach it with my

Mind pinned open

Mind somewhere else

Anywhere but here

Left side, right side

Toss myself on the floor

Lay flat, find solid ground

My heart pounding through the boards, racing

Racing

Racing

Racing

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Neural circuits blew a fuse

Exposed wires still heavy with charge

I can’t sleep

But I can’t go back

I can’t sleep

But I can’t go back

I can’t sleep

But I can’t go back

Impatient for the morning

Impatient for the mourning